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do you ever just feel like sometimes all your doing is going through the motions?
i've felt like that a lot lately.
as if i'm just a shell of a person, just wandering through it all with a smile on my face and a blank look in my eyes.
i'm convinved everyone is faking it.
or at least i am.

don't believe it when i say i'm doing just great.
or that everything is super.
truth is, it hasn't been for awhile.
and the craziest thing about it is
i have no idea why.


to look at my life, everything looks wonderful
but it doesn't feel it.
somethings got me down.
i can't figure out what it is.
i think i may have an idea though.



the only good thing about being down this far for this long is that i can't help but to look up.


hoping april will turn it around.
or the possible change of view i'm thinking of getting in may.


i guess we'll see


hang in there with me okay?