the science of me.............

So much to say lately but the words have failed me.

Or maybe I have failed them.

Trying to bring it all around but that's never easy when you're not sure where to begin.
My head and my heart are all sorts of crazy.
It's hard to believe in normal when I don't really know what normal is.

Sometimes I wonder about all of this.
What it means.
What it doesn't.

My head doesn't understand what my heart knows to be true. But it's too stubborn to ever give up trying.

I want to believe in this.
All of it.
None of it.

I want it to be my makebelieve, my reality, my everything.

I wish I knew nothing.

After all, isn't ignorance bliss?