Jealousy may not look good on but it sure does fit you well........

I had one of those amazingly grown up conversations with my mom today. You know, the kind you can only have 3000 miles away and over the phone.

I've learned alot of things I didn't know about me recently. Perhaps one of the biggest it this:

I refuse to settle.

To settle for mediocre over magical.
To settle for okay over OH WOW.
To settle for good over great.
To settle for you and all of this.

I'm through with the past, it's not worth my time. I can't change it, but I can learn from it. And I've learned it's not worth dwelling on the things I didn't enjoy when I was going through them.

Sometimes it's the looking back that's harder than the actual event.

Not to mention, if I spend all of my time looking behind me, I will miss all of the stuff ahead.....both good and bad.

It took some time to get here, but in the end the road made the journey. With all its twists, turns and unforseen bumps, it was what brought me here today. At times it was hated, during others adored so much. But for all that it was, it is what I needed.

Things haven't all quite come together yet. I'm convinced they never will. But for now, this is close enough.

You gave up on me, I never gave up on you.
Here's hoping no one will ever do the same to you.



Don't spend your life regretting the things you will never do. Spend it making the mistakes they all warned you not to.