this is the breakdown

the fact that when he does it, it doesn't bother me should maybe bother me more.

but it doesn't


if i'm honest with myself, it wasn't you who brought me back.


i thought it was.
but it wasn't.

it was him.

and if i'm honest with myself, he's not the reason i'm leaving.

i thought he was.
but he isn't


it is you.



i still hate that i don't hate you.

but really i do.