"so when you seeing me falling backwards down the wall, that says i'm still alive..........."

"Nothing is ever the same twice because everything is always gone forever, and yet each moment has infinite photographic possibilities."
-michael kenna



how will any of it ever mean anything to anyone if it doesn't mean anything to you?

"some signpost to remind me how i wanted things this way........"

i wish i had a logical thought process in my head.

nothing feels right anymore.

not even the thing i thought was right.

i miss things and people i never thought i would.

i don't really even know what i know anymore.




all i do know is i hate feeling this way.


but really, i don't even know how i feel.



trying to get it all together again, but as usual failing miserably.

cut it loose.....................

sometimes i feel like i'm just wasting time, waiting on you.

truth is, i wonder if you're ever even gonna show.





suppose only time will tell.
but i'm running out of that everyday.

lay the blame on luck...............

sometimes i feel like i'm standing on the outside of everything, wondering if i'll ever get in.





i fear the only place i'll ever fit is with you.