11.12.13

The only day I wish I could forget.

i'd break on the shore for you, either way...

the only thing i've ever wanted is for someone to love me back.



i thought you'd be here by now.

my love, my love.......... what can i do?

sometimes i think i dreamt you into life.
that you are this beautiful dream that i never want to wake up from.

only thing is, i have to wake up.


because you're not real, you never were.
you always have been this wonderful, made up thing in my head.


you are the fairytale i will never have.

the prince that will never come.



you are just the boy who barely knows this girl.

who will never really be anything to me at all.




WAKE UP!



it's time.

you're my favorite bird and when you sing.......

it's so stupid how much i miss you.

"smile to keep the sky from falling down.........."

more and more lately i've been wondering if there's a reason for me to stay here.

seeing you as happy as you were the other night was all i ever needed.

all i've ever wanted was for you to be happy.

i just wish it could have included me.


perhaps it really is time to give up on this.
on you.
on us.


and just move on.




"there's just this human heart. it's built with this human flaw."

three will love you so much...........

you'll probably never know exactly what you mean to me.


part of thinks you might have a clue.


but if you don't that's okay too.

i always said our number was three...

there's a part of me that still wants to believe.

a part that can't let go of the possibility of you and me.


maybe i'll get past this someday

or perhaps i never will.


but either way, you're on my mind, especially today.



hope it's your best year yet.


maybe you'll see a bit more of me in it.